Their was a time...some times i wish...i m wrong for writing this...i just need to vent and dont have anyone to tell this to...i try...i make the house nice, make good meals, keep the house stocked with food, do the laundry, i try really hard to find work. Today we have a "snow day" i thought it would be nice to spend it like the old days. i got work done quick and i started the supper last night so all i have to do today is put it on the stove...nothing! not one glance nothing...not a swat, not an order, nothing...He has sat infront of his video game for the past 6 hours straight. i dont want to be in the way of his video games...i just yearn for the old days when we would spend days like this together...even if he was playing video game he would chain me and have me at his feet.
i moved leaving all of my friends and family to be with him. i still see my family and friends they are just over 2 hours away now...i sometimes feel like this site is my companion. i can talk with like minded ppl not be looked at funny or feel impossing.
i need to be grateful. i have a home and a Master...i m sry for the bitch pitty fest. i tried to make this prive so no one else would have to see it but i dont know how to do that.
i need to be thankful...i need to be grateful! i just wish i had a Master who was into BDSM as much as me.