I Did Wrong
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When Sir informed me of the topic of the blog I would be writing about today He said it would not be an easy topic to write about. For He was right. But slavery is never an easy road, and it's His job to push me and have me do things that I'm uncomfortable with doing.
Now this is the second time I have talked with Sir. The first was around the end of February of this year. I started communication with Sir, we met right here on Slave Farm. Sir has never been shy of who He is, hidden the fact of the type of Dominant He is he's strong, brutal at times, and doesn't take any crap from any female as it should be. As in the beginning part of I believe of March I stopped talking to Sir. I blocked Him, wouldn't talk to Him at all. It was wrong, not the right thing to do. I totally admit this I was wrong, I shouldn't of done what I did. It was wrong because I didn't tell Sir I had fears, concerns, doubts. He never did one thing that triggered me doing what I did. For a slave should never act like that to a Dominant.

I know more of you are wondering why I did this? Why would a slave with a good head on her shoulders walk away from the one Dominant she has been 100% honest with, has told Him things no one else on Earth knows, that He can give her everything she needs, wants, and desires. Well all I can say is when you finally do come to face to face with the true One. I got scared. As with Sir He often tells me He needs to know every single detail thing about me. And that's scary in itself to be that honest, open to another having no secrets from Him. But I want to clarify something right here that I'm not scared of Sir, ok I'm a little nervous of the things He could do to me but not scared of Him. As I've seen His work. I had other people talking to me with I'm sure they thought was good intentions. I was listening to the wrong people instead of listening to the one voice I should have been, the one voice that has never steered me wrong. I was scared what if I can't handle this what Sir will do to me. Yes I want it, yes I've fantasized about it for years. But fantasy and reality are two different things. What if I'm not really a slave? If I would told Sir all this and didn't do the wrong I did I know He would of talked the sense back into me. But I didn't, and I did do wrong.

Four days ago I messaged Sir. Unsure what His reaction would be, if He would even talk to me. So with a fluttering heart, and nervous climbing up the wall I sent Him a simple message of Hello Sir. Figuring in that simple message would tell me a lot either He would ignore me completely which would of been in His right, told me to go to Hell again in His right, or my hope was that He would give me a second chance which I didn't deserve. Sir and I started talking the first time we talked on the phone I was so anxious before we talked. Would he treat me differently? Would He throw back in my face what I have done? But yes we talked about what I did, why I did it, but it was never thrown nastily back in my face. Sir treated me the same as He did before. But I also knew Sir being the type of Dominant that He is I would have to be punished for the crimes I have done against Him. And sending that first message to Him here a few days ago I knew that was an option. But I also knew that whatever punishment He bestows on me, and I've yet to receive it. The punishment will be rough, unenjoyable, but something I must endure not only for Sir but for myself. For how do I learn a lesson without being properly punished? I don't. So all I can say is thank you to Sir for taking me on again, I apologize for my wrong doings, and know in the future I will do better. Will I mess up, will I stumble along my path of slavery. I can almost guarantee it, for no matter how much I want to be I am not a perfect slave. But I do know no matter if I stumble, fall, Sir will be there belt or any other tool in hand to get me back up, where I need to be. And for this I am eternally grateful that I have a Dominant as good as He is.

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PropertyofBigHurt's picture

Re: I Did Wrong

Thank you Sir for your nice comment. No it wasn't easy to write But if it can help only one person than was worth it.

PropertyofBigHurt's picture

Re: I Did Wrong

Thank you Sir for your nice comment.

ByMyWill's picture

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This was extremely well written. I'm sure it wasn't easy for you to write but it could be very helpful for new slaves (and masters) to better understand the challenges. Adjusting to this way of life can be extremely difficult, but it will get easier. Becoming a slave means tearing down much of the woman you spent the last 34 years becoming, in order to be rebuilt to your master's vision. There will be pain, both physical and emotional, but it will be well worth it. Remember to trust your master; he know's what's best for you.

trimagic's picture

Re: I Did Wrong

Enjoy your submission dear

PropertyofBigHurt's picture

Re: I Did Wrong

Yes Sir. But I know it's necessary Sir.

Bighurt's picture

Re: I Did Wrong

Yes... Your correction session is coming. It will not be pleasant

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