Things are not coming along like i hoped... He works to freakin much. Im getting bored with the same things now... my birthday is coming soon and im hoping or praying he has something great planned. I know for sure we are flying somewhere, but i really want some cool toys or a cage or something cool like that. I know i say I want to much but i think i deserve it. I am having the biggest problem having regular sex now since we have been playing our"games." I can't get wet unless he is raping me or have a rape movie in... I know.... kind of sad anyways If anyone has a suggestion I would love to listen. O.. well ...I can if im drinking alcohol... LIke yall know from before he doesn't enjoy rape play to much he thinks he is going to hurt me lol hurt me perminetly....soo yaa Fun times Also when im alone i can't get off unless im watching rape... WTF I know weird....lol Well theres my update not much..... O and I am alot safer with my asphyxiation plays...Thank you everyone for all the concerns/warning.