On Being Kept Naked
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On Being Kept Naked

Something that has always been rather hard for me is being kept naked. I have self-esteem issues that have always made it extremely embarrassing for anyone to look at me, naked or not. Naturally, I managed to get beyond my fear of being seen, otherwise I might not have ever left the safety of my childhood bedroom. However, I have not yet, and might not ever, gotten over the humiliation of being viewed unclothed.

I’m able to put this fear behind me, on occasion, but more often than not you’ll find me wrapped in a blanket (unless it’s excruciatingly hot, and sometimes even then) even though there’s no one to look at me but Master. At times, I’d rather sweat than sit unclothed so that every fold and curve of my skin is visible to Him. And when Master is fully clothed it’s that much more difficult to sit vulnerable to scrutiny.

He’s never made a single negative comment about my appearance. His hands almost never leave my body when we’re home together. But the ones that are meant to be positive sting just as much as a negative comment could. Because in every positive word He says to me, I hear my own mind spitting back venomous, hateful words.

A rule I’ve had almost since the first time we spoke of rules is not to put myself down. And, as most do, I took this to mean “out loud”, of course, because He can’t hear my thoughts, right? Except, something I chose to ignore is that the only opinion that should matter to me is His opinion and if one were to judge by the way He can’t keep His hands off of me or His cock out of me they’d judge that His opinion is good.

So why am I so convinced that I am absolutely revolting in appearance?

When He threatens to take my blanket away, I feel frantic, panicky. Granted, the whole point of me being kept naked is so that I may hide nothing from Him. And yet, I cling to my blanket more firmly than I’ve ever clung to my teddy bear or any other “security” vice I’ve had. And when He orders me to take it off of certain parts, when it’s obvious that He wants to be able to easily see my naked form, I feel dirty and disgusting. Low, repulsive. Humble.

Being kept naked is hard for me. What’s it like for you?

~rayne
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Master insists that I am naked at all times at home. When I am alone or with Master I have bcome used to being naked. I am still very nervous and embarrassed when Master brings His friends into my house. He insists on me serving Him and His friends completely naked.

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Me too!
Wow. I feel the same way. Gosh. It doesn't matter how much I know he loves my body. We are switches so, when I am playing bottom, that is a really good way to kill 2 birds with one stone. He has the control and I am left feeling helpless but it also makes me a little more confident about my body each time.
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being clothed is like the last line of defense, I agree if you owner did not like your body he would not want you naked

you should be proud of what you offer and drop the blanket for his pleasure

I suggest maybe spending a cpl weekend at a nudist camp to get over you fears

I do understand how you might feel and think that allowing a blanet is to enable you but that is his choice

Blackhart

:) The blanket is actually allowed (mostly) because my desk chair is vinyl and for cold days/nights. I take advantage as often as possible. It's my failing, not His. 

Thank you, everyone, for your responses :)  

~rayne

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being clothed is like the last line of defense, I agree if you owner did not like your body he would not want you naked

you should be proud of what you offer and drop the blanket for his pleasure

I suggest maybe spending a cpl weekend at a nudist camp to get over you fears

I do understand how you might feel and think that allowing a blanet is to enable you but that is his choice

Blackhart

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   being naked in a room where almost everyone is dressed,is for me, the ultimate submission, as time passes it becomes natural,th_20061214205702.jpg
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but do you think that a slave is more embarassed when she is kept naked with an hairy pussy or not?
As I said on the previous post, my slave is more embarassed when she have hairy pussy...
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Besides the fact many of us just like seeing a person naked, having any person naked increases the feeling of vulnerability and dependence on the other party.  Often making a slave stay naked reinforces the slaves status as owned property. 

I try and remind slaves that if the owner wants you naked, then they are proud enough of you to want to show you off and pleasing your owner shuld always be the first priority of a slave. 

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is really hard also for my slut...
that why I keep her naked often...
she have to understand that she is nothing more than an object..and an object doesn't need clothes :D
Specially when she must serves me and my friend for a dinner!
And I found out that she get more embarassed when she is naked in front off with hairy pussy...I don't know why,but it seems that show hairy pussy is more embarassing!
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Besides the fact many of us just like seeing a person naked, having any person naked increases the feeling of vulnerability and dependence on the other party.  Often making a slave stay naked reinforces the slaves status as owned property. 

I try and remind slaves that if the owner wants you naked, then they are proud enough of you to want to show you off and pleasing your owner shuld always be the first priority of a slave. 

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Beauty is only skin deep. But I think beauty is in the eye off the beholder. I bet your Master agrees. The fact he has never said a discouraging word is prove and can’t keep his hands off you is further prove.

 

            We all have things about us we dislike and we all cling to something what gives us comfort.  If it makes you happy, use it. Don’t ask me why I am not qualified to answer. I have my views.

 

            But at the end off the day we all hate something about ourselves, I am grateful there are folks you see me for who and what I am. Plus they stand by me when I am having down time. Rayne, take joy that you have a Caring Master.

 

            Also take more pride that you know what you like and dislike and can use the brain I know you have and can articulate a good response.

 

             How do I treat nakedness? Hard. I have a slave/sub/gf who hates being naked. She hates her bbw body and wants a “perfect body”. I know and she knows she will never have one and it upsets her. I still keep her naked when we are playing etc. But we are wise enough to know we can’t have are dreams.

 

            If we were all prefect what a dull place this planet would be.

                                                                     

By the way, thank you for your responses to my off the mark postings.

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Being kept naked
This is a perfect example of how nakedness can be a leash in itself, its psychological power over the human animal so very effective. With that said, I would not fret; your master no doubt highly enjoys your nakedness and fear of it, too.
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**hugs** to rayne
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Being kept naked
This is a perfect example of how nakedness can be a leash in itself, its psychological power over the human animal so very effective. With that said, I would not fret; your master no doubt highly enjoys your nakedness and fear of it, too. 
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If your Master didn't approve of your appearance, He'd probably do something about it. Try to find comfort in that.
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Generally speaking, each of us is our own worst critic. Even those who have what some might consider a perfect body usually have at least one thing in mind to be "fixed." That's just the way it is for most people.

I've noticed that :/ 

~rayne 

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Generally speaking, each of us is our own worst critic. Even those who have what some might consider a perfect body usually have at least one thing in mind to be "fixed." That's just the way it is for most people.
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