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Several weeks ago I was confronted with a decision... The decision was to freely tell or to continue to withhold some things that happen to me years ago.  

I have decided to tell.  

My hope is to let everyone who knows me and consider me their friend, what happen to me and why I am who I am today.

I say that I am a Master because of this education and I say that it enabled me to obtain a considerable amount of knowledge.  

I hope that you understand how personal this is and, once again humiliating, but I do this to be honest to all who knows me and to be forthcoming to those who might have similar motives in their life.

 

This is some selected excerpts from a journal kept by me when I was forcibly held against my will as a slave.  Keep in mind, that I did not go into this with most of this in mind.

In life sometimes things happen we can only look back and wish had been different. But, when we look back it is already too late. Since I have been here at SlaveFarm, this time, I have been very warmly welcomed and only now feel it is time to disclose what I can only describe as a very dark chapter in my life. Even though the ends justified the means, I ask that you try to understand the psyche behind all of this as well as the intentions of my friend Mistress Onny.

Many years ago I was jealous that there were dominants that used the title "Master". I wanted to but had to ask my friend Mistress Onny, what I had to do to change my title in the lifestyle. She said to understand what it means to be a "Master" you need to better understand what it meant to be a slave. Sounded logical to me, so we worked out a deal that she would train me solely as a slave to bring me to this better understanding. The following are the parts I choose to reveal to lift the burden of secrecy from me.

Excerpts: From my transfiguration from Dom to Master

September 3rd, 1987

This journal was to be created as a living record of my advanced training in the area of BDSM with the intension of increasing my experience, knowledge and understanding of the lifestyle and its intricacies. To better acquire this knowledge I decided to submit to a friend, who is a Dominatrix, as Her slave for what She terms as a short-term contract of 12 weeks. Mistress Onny will give me this training in the intension to raise my level within the lifestyle from Dominant to Master. We agree that all things that She decides is in my best interest will be allowed according to our contract. The contract proceeds from this day forward. Mistress Onny, has decreed that I will keep a weekly journal during my training to use as a reference in days to come. My last weekend for the next 12 weeks is mine however I am “owned” by Mistress Onny. She has allowed me this weekend to do whatever I choose to. Mainly watching old Star Trek TNG tapes and having a few beers is my plan. On Sunday night I must go over to Her house and begin my training.

Week One September 6th – September 12

Upon my arrival at my new Mistress’ house She welcomed me warmly and asked me to come in and have a seat. We discussed our friendship of many years, 15 or so, as we decided and She said to me that Her intension was to train me and give me experience, opportunities and insight that I would otherwise perhaps not have. I agreed that this relationship was a good way for me to learn and give myself a new perspective on the area of domination and submission because she, as a friend could be trusted and honored. This week was full of many things some known or experienced some unknown or experienced. Mistress is allowing me this time to make some notes about what happened this week… She has ordered me to ask permission to cum at all times. So, I must ask at all times or be punished.

The week begun with a very understanding conversation between us to get things clear between us. Mistress then told me to remove my clothes on Sunday night and I have been naked ever since. She placed a training collar on me of Her ownership and locked it on with a padlock She placed me down here in the basement where She makes me sleep, eat and wash. She has trained me on proper etiquette in how to address Her how to speak with Her and how to respond when given directives. Mistress has trained me on how to clean this week starting with Her basement. She released my chain from the wall but it remained dangling as I cleaned Her basement. All things were of importance. She would not allow anything to be forgotten that was within my ability. I cleaned Her basement for two days while She observed from time to time keeping me in Her basement all the while. There is an old toilet here in the basement She allowed me to use. It has no room or doors but it is nice to be able to use it. However to use it She must unlock my chain. Mistress has told me that I clean ok, but not good enough. She punished me this week several times for finding things not cleaned well enough. She used a crop or a quirt on me each time. Mistress also taught me how to shine Her shoes, hand wash some of Her clothing, and iron them as well. She had me place the ironing board near to my corner where I am chained so I can work unsupervised and chained. I eat all my meals alone here in the basement and do not have any forks, or spoons just my fingers. I have a bowl for my food and another bowl for my water. She allows me to pick up my drinking bowl to drink but She said that this privilege can be taken away.

Week Two

This week has been very rough one from my Mistress; She has been much harder on me this week. I cannot please Her it seems. She has moved me up to the ground floor of Her House now but I still sleep and work in the basement quite often. I spend a lot of my time going up and down the freshly painted stairs between the basement and first floor. Washing, ironing and when allowed I take a bath in the sink that is used to wash Her clothing. This week She had me pain the stairs, and the floor in the basement in stages to allow me to have fresh air. Now that the floor is painted light blue I have much more light in the basement but it is much easier to see the dirt on the floor. Mistress was very gracious with Her praise on my job of painting. It was nice to hear Her say that but She always has my mind going in many directions. This week Mistress trained me to wash Her in the shower and shampoo Her hair. It is very important that I avoid getting soap or shampoo in Her eyes. She trained me how to shampoo Her hair using care not to use my fingernails but only my finger prints to shampoo Her. It is also always done two times. Her scrunge {scrubbing sponge} is firs gotten wet and then the liquid soap is applied. She likes to have Her body soaped down very well and wants it to be slow and circular. Once Her whole body is soaped down I am to use my hands to rub the soap all over Her body even more. This was a nice lesson because showering with my Mistress is fun and gives me a kinda shower too. At least I get wet. Mistress also taught me how to dry off Her body as well. This was very fun and very refreshing.

Week Three

This week started out very rough. Monday, Mistress called me to Her dining room and told me to take a shower in Her bathroom. I was very happy that She was allowing me this pleasure. She watched as I clean myself thoroughly under the occasional crop across my back or leg. After I dried off She said that it was time to begin my sexual training. She commanded me to go to my corner in the basement and She locked me there with the chain to the collar but this time for some reason She did not give me the full length. The section from the wall to Her collar was only about 8 feet. The other 8 feet or so was hanging from Her collar. Mistress told me that in the lifestyle there are many different sexual preferences. Some slaves like it sensual and others like it rough. It is important to understand that when you are a Master/Mistress and want your slave to perform sexual things for you, you must require them to do it without question. She said that She wanted to watch me have sex with another person so She could see how I perform for that person. She asked me if I had any problems with this. I will never forget my reply that day when I said, ‘no problems Mistress.’ She left me for a moment and then returned with two men, both slightly bigger than I physically and both were wearing sunglasses. I did not understand at first but it became crystal clear when one of them grabbed me and said “prepare to be dominated slave”. I said no, and began to struggle with him. Mistress said to me don’t fight slave or I will beat you. I stopped for a moment and the second man pulled my hands behind me and wrapped the chain around my hands. After that, they hit me several times knocking the wind out of me and knocked me to the ground. I begged them not to do that but they did not listen. The first man pulled his cock from his pants and yelled at me to suck it. He slapped my face and repeated it again, suck it slave. I started to suck it and it started to get hard in my mouth. He forced me to keep sucking by grabbing my hair while the other man continued to hold me by the chains and started to play with my cock. I started to get hard as he did this. They started to use a crop on me once in a while to keep me sucking the mans cock but mostly for fun.. Then the other man pulled me over to a chair that Mistress was sitting on and he sat down. He pulled his cock out and said suck me slave. I started sucking him then. The other man applied some kind of lubrication to my ass, I again tried to struggle but Mistress told them to beat me if I resisted. They forced me to my feet and bent me over so I could suck the mans cock sitting on the chair. I know I started to cry that I was being stripped of my manhood and treated as though I was an insignificant whore. The man then put his cock in my ass, the pain was intense and I hollered as the man’s cock went in my ass but the other man grabbed me and started slapping my face. He said take it slave and suck my cock bitch. This went on for what seemed was a long time; they also kept playing with my then hard cock.. Then the man grabbed my hair very hard and forced his cock in my mouth again. He kept saying suck me slave, and called me a fuckin bitch. He then came in my mouth and said to me eat it slave or I will kick your ass. I obeyed him and ate his cum. The other man pulled his cock from me and said suck me again slave I tried to speak.. But he slapped me and knocked me to the floor. He yelled, get up bitch and suck your Masters cock. I got up on my knees and started to suck him, the other man held my Mistress’ collar, I could not get away. While I was sucking his cock he sat down in the chair and I continued to suck him. I started to become interested in pleasing him and making it a nice one for him. I used my tongue and kissed his cock and licked him and sucked his cock vehemently, this mans cock had become my way of trying to keep him from hurting me again. I sucked him for a while and then he grabbed Mistress’ collar and came in my mouth. I swallowed every bit I could lick away before I pulled away from his cock. Someone struck me hard and I fell to the floor. I got up and the man said, I did not tell you to stop bitch, suck my cock. I continued to suck his cock until he became soft. The man then said jack off slave get your cock off. I started to jack off and while I did he said to cum in my opposite hand and not to spill any. I kept jacking off for a short time and then I cam in my hand. He said eat your cum bitch, lick your hand. I licked it and then the men walked upstairs and Mistress told me to rest for a few minutes. When Mistress Onny came back She said that She was not happy that I resisted Her friends. She said that I was to be punished for this resistant attitude and proceeded to beat my back and genitals with Her quirt. She left me chained for what seemed to me a long time then came back and said what have you learned slave? I told Her that I learned that men are very powerful and have great power in both their mind and body but they also demand a great deal from another person but in submitting to that power there is a sense of pleasure to please. I did not want to please them but I wanted to prevent them from hurting me. When I did that, I noticed it gave me some satisfaction to please him anyway. I wanted to make you happy and proud. I didn’t Mistress, I failed you. She said, slave, you didn’t fail if you learned something. But you will have to remember that you do not say no to me or resist again, is that clear slave? I agreed with Her and She moved my chain to the end allowing me the full length again. She said it is time for you to clean up slave, wash yourself and I will be back later. I washed myself and cried that I did not completely submit to what my Mistress actually asked me if I was ok. But I am determined that I would strive to do better. Mistress came back and put a chastity device on my cock. It was metal and locked under the balls. She placed a leash on me and removed the chain. Follow me slave. She led me up to Her bedroom and told me that it is time to learn how to please my Mistress in bed. She lay down and told me to lick Her pussy. She had a nicely trimmed pussy and displayed a small patch of hair atop of it. She talked me through licking Her here and there telling me higher, gentler and so on. She kept me licking Her cunt for about one hour. My neck was hurting and my jaw was tired of this position and I wanted to stop so badly but I would not allow myself another failure. She Held a crop but did not use it against me in pain but She stroked my back gently with it while I licked Her and obeyed Her commands. I felt my cock getting hard and tried to stop it. It hurt due to the metal device pressing against my cock. The pain was great and caused me to go back down. Mistress kept me licking Her for a long time and then said for me to stop. She said, if you want to lick me again, I suggest that your more receptive next time when you are being used for sex again, ok slave? I agreed. Tuesday morning came and Mistress walked down the stairs to the basement wearing Her strap-on carrying Her crop. I could not believe that She had one but then She said again, its time for your sexual training slave. I wanted to show my willingness so I said Yes Mistress but my voice quivered. She approached and said suck it slave. I obeyed, She handed me some KY and said put some on the top of the head slave. I obeyed and put it on the head of the strap-on. She said spread it around with your lips slave, again I obeyed. She then took me over to the chair that She usually sits in when talking to me in the basement. Told me to bend over the back and grab the armrests. I obeyed. She put the strap-on in me and proceeded to put it to me for a while. She asked me several times who is your Mistress& who is it you want to please? I always seem to get out; You Mistress. While She was fucking me She struck me with Her crop, it was very exciting and the combination between Her fucking me and cropping me was making me hard again. But She still had the chastity device on me and it hurts as I grow hard. Mistress said to me that I have to resume all my cleaning and such today. She finished fucking me and then told me to lick it off. I paused a moment and She struck me with Her crop and said now. I obeyed. Wednesday morning, Mistress walked down the stairs again wearing Her strap-on. She said good morning slave. Time for your training. Mistress did this every morning this week after begin raped by the two masters. I am so sore and have been for days. Mistress has taught me how to clean the ground floor, set the table, serve meals for Her and guests, how to clean up after dinners and the location for everything. Mistress says, “A place for everything and everything in its place” This include the cleaning and maintenance of all toys and devices used on me for my training.

Week Four

This week has been very taxing to me. Even though Mistress has allowed me to remain unchained now, She is teaching me how to walk, crawl, sit, kneel, stand, lay, get up, submit and retrieve as a slave should. Walk, Keep hands on the front of my thighs. Crawl, Use hands and feet not my knees when She has company, use my knees when She is alone with me. Sit, I first kneel and then pull my feet under me to sitting position. Kneel, go down on the left knee and then on the right with my hands on the front of my thighs. Knees apart always. Stand, Knees together and rock back to the ball of the feet and rise. Then separate the feet by 15 inches, Lay, I go to a kneeling position then turn to the left rolling over to my back. My feet apart 15 inches hands on my thighs. Get Up, go to a kneeling position first then rise from there like from kneeling position. Submit, go to a kneeling position then go to a position on your arms and hands on the floor with your knees on the ground and feet pointed out. Retrieve, Mistress combines things such as walking, and serving Her or other guests.

Week Five

Mistress has been training me in the use of different toys and devices. She has used my body for temporary piercing on my tongue and my nose. She has used a battery powered flyswatter, crops, paddles, a leather flogger and a suede flogger. She has used metal handcuffs on me, leather cuffs, and put me in a cage. Her cage has a head hole on one side where She can confine my head and pierce my tongue with hypodermic needles. Keeping Her home clean is my primary function during the day. Night time is training time entertaining time and play time. Mistress warned me that She will have guests next Wednesday. She said this will be my first public showing and that I am to obey completely or I will be severely punished. She also jus told me that personal pronouns will not be allowed anymore in my journal entries. She is concerned how often the word I is used within its entries. It will be necessary to use {he, him but not I or me}.

Week Six

This week he has been working very hard to get things ready for Mistress’ party. Mistress has removed my chastity device and he is very happy about that. This party is a party just to have friends over. These fiends are all lifestyle people but many are not public about it because of being a Doctor or Manager of larger companies. Mistress asked him to wear only Her collar for this party. This was very hard as those people arrived they were able to see him completely. He opened the door for all of the guests as they entered. There was one single Master and a Master with a slave and a Mistress with a slave. The slaves were male and female. Mistress commanded me to serve drinks snacks and such Wednesday night, we did not have dinner but only snacks. Mistress then said for me to kneel next to Her. He obeyed. She allowed each dominant to say something about him and his service to each of them that night. The single Master said that he was impressed with the eagerness used to serve. The Mistress said that he should mind his eyes and not look directly at the eyes of a Mistress/Master. The Master with the slave said that if he were granted permission, He would crop me for looking at His slave. Mistress said that all three Dominants could have me for 10 minutes each. I cringed. I began to feel weak and scared. The visiting Mistress said something to Mistress Onny and they left the room. The two Master decided that they wanted to see the two slaves fuck. They obtained permission from Mistress and the visiting Mistress. They ordered them to remove their clothing and the male slave was ordered to fuck the female slave. To him it was more like rape but nevertheless, they were fucking on the floor. The single Master got Mistress’ crop from Her as She walked back in with the visiting Mistress. The visiting Mistress was wearing Mistress Onny’s strap-on. The two Masters told him to kneel and they took turns using the crop on him. Not too hard but enough to feel it. When they got finished the visiting Mistress told him to lube up the strap-on. She handed me the KY and he put it all over his lips then transferred it to Mistress’ strap-on. She commented that, that made Her excited, putting it on with my lips. She told me to take a position over the back of an easy chair. She put it to me very hard but not like Mistress does. Mistress has a way to do it that makes his knees weak. When the slaves were finished fucking the single Master was granted permission to fuck the slave as well. But, they went down in the basement out of view. The girlslave was a younger girl about 19 or 20. She never said anything that night but did make some sounds when She was getting fucked by the Master. I think he was slapping Her around down then because She was red upon return. After She was finished fucking him, She ordered Her slave, the male slave to suck my cock. He was about the same age but he was smaller. He knelt at my feet and commenced to suck my cock. This slave has some reservations about doing this because he seems like this is his first time. Feeling his pain and anguish, made me remember my episode with the two Masters. It was very exciting and made me very horny and my cock got very hard. Remembering that Mistress has ordered him to request permission before cumming, he so asked. She granted the permission and for the first time in my life a man swallowed my cum. He licked me clean and did a great job. He never looked up at me he simply obeyed what he was told. Learning from that slave that night was a powerful experience. He simply obeyed. It is his opinion that the male slave had to do this to me because he was able to get some slave cunt from the little slave girl. Mistress told him Wednesday night that She was fairly happy about that night. Just a couple times She had noticed that he was looking at the slave girl. It was not any of his business or not any of my property so I should not disrespect a Master’s slave like that. Also She said that there was one time during the night that he had taken his hands off his thighs when kneeling. I was reinstructed on this position by my Mistress and Her crop.

Week Seven

Mistress trained him this week in some cooking, pedicures, manicures and he was able to show off his ability in giving massages. She did not teach me this but enjoys them now. Mistress uses Her strap-on on him about four or five times per week. She also does so while holding a crop sometimes sensually sometimes not. She enjoys fucking him and when She is finished, She likes him to lick Her.

Week Eight

This week has been a scary week; Mistress approved my slave cleaning chart. So, as agreed upon She did not punish me but rewarded me by giving me some Chips Ahoy cookies, three to be exact. He has been keeping very busy cleaning, laundry and such but Mistress also took him to a park near Her home. There She ordered him to remove his cloths. The clothes removed were a t-shirt, a pair of gym shorts and sandals. There She tied him to a fallen tree, with hands bound and feet bound like he was hugging it. She pulled out Her quirt and told me that it is time to learn how to hold my tongue when being punished. She had never told him not to make any sounds when being punished until now. She started to whip me with Her quirt. He grabbed the tree to gain strength. She told me not make any sound or someone might hear. He held his tongue as She continued to flog his back and legs. She whipped him until he was crying and then She stopped. She said do you want some more slave? He replied as You wish Mistress, not he. She said that She wanted more and asked if he could continue to hold his tongue. He replied, he will Mistress. She started to whip him again. Again, She brought me to tears and crying. She said to me again, who do you want to please slave? He said You Mistress. She asked me if he wanted some more? He said, as You wish Mistress. She beat him with Her crop a few more times then stopped. She said, something about him being Her slave, tied and helpless, owned and collared, weak and beaten. She then put on Her strap-on She untied my feet and told me to stand and expose my sex to Her. He obeyed. She had him lick Her strap-on to get it wet and then fucked him over the tree. This was painful but he loved it and did not question his Mistress’ intensions. But She then told him to lie back down on the log. She again bound his feet to the tree. She said that She was going to leave him there over night. The animals, elements and/or people could do whatever they wanted to him during that time. He began to beg Her not to do that. He begged for quite a while but She was determined to leave him to the elements. He cried as She left from his site. He tried to free himself but to no avail. It became quiet and the birds begin to make their calls. Piece fell over him and piece was a feeling that felt good at that point. He had laid there for a while and then could hear someone coming. He was tied and helpless, naked and vulnerable, could hear some voices talking but could not understand. Then the two Masters who raped him in Mistress’ basement came into sight and Mistress Onny was with them. His heart jumped for joy that it was someone he knew but was quickly replaced with fear of their intensions. Both Masters started saying that he was a good little bitch last time how would I be this time. Then one of the Masters pulled his cock out and sat down on the log. He told me to suck his cock. He said yes Master, and suck Masters cock until He came in his mouth. He sucked Masters cock dry and then the other Master did the same thing. Again I sucked his too but when he was sucking the second Masters cock, the Master and Mistress who visited a couple weeks ago came up to us. They said that it was going to be a gang bang tonight. …and tonight it was. Night was falling and it was getting dark... But the third Master put his huge cock in my face to suck. This Master’s cock was a cock to end all cocks. It was bigger around and longer than the other two Masters. He sucked it but it was hard to suck one of this size. After a while he kind of got used to it and he kept sucking it. He loved this feeling of helplessness and being used in public but was unconcerned about anyone else watching or seeing. He did not even think of it until it was time to record things on his journal. While he was sucking the third masters cock the other mistress pissed on his ass and began to fuck him with a strap-on. His mind returned to the time when the two Masters had raped him and he started to cry. Masters cock was hard and he was taking it in as deep as he could. Mistress fucked him and was tell me to turn up my ass to make it easier for her... Then the master he was sucking pulled a knife out and said keep sucking slave reached down and cut the ropes that bound my hands. Then Mistress cut the ropes on my legs. He grabbed Masters cock and gave it all of his attention and made love to his cock. Master grabbed his hair in the back and pushed my face in to his cock and he came in my mouth. His cum was great and his amount was heavy. He said thank You to the Master, for some reason he is not sure why he thank Him. Mistress took me by a leach and told me to put my clothing on and She led me back to Her car. She put me in the trunk and Everyone else got in the car. W/we drove off and returned to Mistress’ house. To my surprise there was dungeon equipment in Mistress’ basement when she took me down there. Now he is not sure what Her plan is but he is sure he is going to find out. All the other Masters left and his Mistress and the other Mistress slept together.

Week Nine

This week Mistress locked him in the cage and kept him there for everything except for going to the bathroom. Then, she makes him urinate in the cage and pour it when it is time to have a bowel movement. I have not cleaned the house for a week and have not been outside or even out of the basement for a whole week either. Mistress has been keeping him here and not allowing me to bathe. He has been living on water and a combination of crackers and bologna. He begged her to feed him something else but She said for him to shut up or he would spend the next three more weeks in the cage until my contract is up.

Week Ten

Mistress let me out of the cage this week. he had to clean the whole house on Monday and Tuesday and learn how to care for the new dungeon equipment. Mistress said that the basement is now called the dungeon. She now has a cross, a cage which she already had, an adjustable standing stock and a queening chair. She instructed him on the use of the queening chair first. Lying on the cool dungeon floor licking Her gave me an erection so she punished him with her crop. She locked him in the stocks and used her strap-on on him, that was great and then she put cuffs on him and locked him on the cross face out. She started to whip me with Her quirt on my inner legs and genitals. She kept doing this and he became week, relaxed and gained strength from this. She continued to whip my genitals and touchier his genitals. She said that CBT was a very popular thing in the lifestyle and many Masters and Mistress’ do this. She put clamps on my cock and hung a beer mug from the chain. She continued to whip the inside of his legs and genital area until he started to cry again. Mistress trained him on the proper use of a crop, a quirt, and a flogger this week. She allowed him to practice on a chair in the dungeon. Mistress also trained him on how to use a contract to get what he wanted from a prospective piece of property.

Week Eleven

Mistress informed him this week that he had to play with another slave and with Her at the same time. This slave was the little 18 or 19 year old slave from the party. We A/all started at the cross. Mistress cropped us some in the genitals and told us both to remember that if she and he do not do what is told of us, She would bring us back to the cross for punishment. We agreed. She released us from the cross and made me kneel and get an erection. The other slave was ordered to suck his cock. She did so. Mistress told her to look at me, and she obeyed. Mistress told me to slap the slave. I obeyed and slapped her. Mistress had her suck me for a minute then slap her Mistress did this several times. The slave began to resent this treatment but her sucking began to get better. He also noticed that he liked to slap this girl as she sucked him. Mistress told him that he could slap her or spank her how ever he so liked. Mistress just sat and watched as he forced her to suck him while he spanked her. Mistress allowed him to abuse her for a little while but she was beginning to be quite passionate with his cock. This slave was unquestionably a masochistic slave. Mistress then told him to go into the cage. Mistress locked it with his head out of the port on the side. Mistress told the slave girl to slap him back for what he had done to her. She was very strong with her slaps, as was he, and Mistress allowed her to slap him around for a long time. He was learning that he resented anyone hurting him except for his Mistress or Her friends the Masters. He was also ordered to lick this slave as she backed up her ass to the cage. Mistress used her battery operated flyswatter on the little girl’s ass and tits during this time. Then he was forced to watch as this slave licked his Mistress’ cunt. This slave was licking his Mistress on the queening chair and Mistress was using her crop on the slave at the same time. Mistress then locked the girl on the end of the chain that bound me at times. She left her there and me in the cage again. We could see each other but could not touch each other. Mistress left and he and the slave girl were alone. He asked her what her name was, she did not answer. He asked her why she would not tell him. She just would not talk. Mistress took her away for the night, he thinks they slept together but is not sure. This scene was one time and for the rest of the week he cleaned, cooked, and served his Mistress.

Week Twelve

Mistress asked me to make daily entries this week since this is my final week of training. Monday- This morning he fixed Mistress’ breakfast, cleaned up the kitchen and proceeded to go through all of his daily choirs. Mistress called him to the living room and said that there would be an inspection tonight to review his work. She leashed him and went around the house inspecting the daily chores. There was a hair on the floor in the bathroom. Mistress bitch-slapped him and said that he would do it again. He cleaned it again and there were no further incidents today except for fixing Mistress’ meals and cleaning up afterwards. Tuesday- This morning he fixed Mistress her breakfast, did his chores and was again inspected by Mistress Onny. Today Mistress said that since she did not find fault in his work she drilled him on, sit, stay, stand, etc. for about two hours. He fixed a light lunch as ordered and cleaned up after that. He was told to cook dinner and set a place for two. Mistress then surprised him by allowing him to dine with her. In the 12 weeks he has been owned he has never sat at the same table unless it was under the table. He cleaned the kitchen and was then place in the cage for the night. Wednesday- Last night as he slept in the cage in the dungeon, Mistress came down and unlocked the cage and fucked me with her strap-on, whipped him and then relocked him in the cage. This time my head was opposite of the head hole leaving his sex exposed. Then this morning she inserted and anal toy with balls and a handle. It was lubricated and she moved it around and in and out for quite a while. Mistress told me that he would need to stay in the cage for the day until nightfall. When it was evening Mistress unlocked the cage and took me out. She place me on a leash and took me outside she trained me to urinate on the tree and forced me to walk about in the night naked, collared and on a leash on Her property. Thursday- This morning all went well, breakfast, lunch and the cleaning today. Mistress was pleased with the cleanliness of the house and rewarded him with some sensual touch and kind words. This evening Mistress asked him what he wanted to do tonight, he said that he wanted the stocks and Her strap-on. Mistress kindly agreed and locked him in the stocks. She came back with her strap-on but it was not the same one She had been using for the past several weeks. This one was larger around and slightly longer. She stood in front of him lubing it up and said that She wanted to give him a nice time since he requested this tonight. Mistress fucked me like a bitch tonight and used her quirt on me at the same time. He was shocked by the surprise of the size of Her new one but wanted to be dominated by Her and did not mind. He knows that She loves to use Her strap-on and beat him with a quirt or crop at the same time. It is a pleasure to submit to Her. Tonight he asked for permission to cum while Mistress was fucking his ass. She denied the request. Mistress did not allow him to get out of the stock right after she finished with him. Mistress played with him with the flyswatter for a while. Mistress shocked his cock, balls and ass many times. Mistress allowed him to sleep upstairs on the floor outside Her bedroom tonight. Friday- Mistress woke me up this morning opening Her bedroom door. She said that she needed to go out this morning but was expecting company for lunch. About 12:30. She ordered me to cook and set a place for two. He obeyed. Mistress came back and had the Master with the big cock with her. They ate lunch together talking and he ate on the floor next to Mistress at his usual place. Mistress said for Master to go to the dungeon and that W/we would be down momentarily. He cleaned up the dishes and then Mistress leased me and led me to the dungeon. Master was naked and sitting on Mistress’ chair. He was wearing only socks. Mistress said to me, since he seemed to like Master Roberts cock, he was going to get one more chance to worship him. Mistress directed me to Master’s chair and ordered him to suck Master’s cock. He said yes, Mistress, and knelt at master’s feet and worshiped his cock. His cock is a great pleasure to worship the power it possesses over this one is great. He worshiped Master’s cock for quite a while and made sure that he used many different techniques to please Master. Finally Master came in his mouth, he almost had an orgasm with Him but could not do that without permission from Mistress and he did not want to pull His cock away from his mouth. Mistress told him that he did a good job on Master Robert and that He was very pleased too. This made me feel fantastic. He pleased both Master Robert and Mistress Onny. His day was a good one and his night was full of puppy training outside with Mistress in the dark. Mistress trained me to have a bowel movement in the grass and to use grass to wipe himself. Overall a great day. Saturday Saturday morning Mistress asked him not to fix Her breakfast and fed him a banana for his. Mistress said that this was my last day as Her slave. But She asked me if he wanted to sign another contract to stay with Her? She said that he was a good slave and would like him to continue. He said that he did not want to leave Her but realizes that She was to train him for only 12 weeks. Mistress said ok at the end of the day She would release him. Mistress left and he was left to his duties for the time being. Mistress came home and told him to go into the bathroom. She told him to go into the shower and proceeded to piss on him. She forced him to open his mouth and taste it and also she slapped him around too. Mistress said that restroom play was the final lesson in what She wanted to do with him. She forced him to have a bowel movement and make little balls from his own waste. After all the little balls were made Mistress had me spread them on his body…and then she fucked me with big black... the larger of the two strap-on’s. Mistress then had me take a shower, clean up and return to the dungeon. Mistress did not require much from him today until evening. He was so happy to see Master Robert come over to witness his uncollaring. This is how it went: Mistress ordered me to kneel at her feet. She said that he was a good slave and did not want to loose him but agrees that the contract was only good for 12 weeks. She also said that in the contract it did not forbid Her from selling me during the course of my training. Mistress said that she had decided to sell me to Master Robert. Master Robert said that He was buying me from Mistress Onny to take me to His house and turn me into a cumslave. He said, how can You do this Mistress and Master? How since my contract expires tonight? Master Robert said that He bought me before the contract was over which makes me His slave now. He put some papers in my hand. He said sign these papers and he would be officially owned. He again said how is this done when he does not have a contract with Master Robert now? Master Robert pulled a metal collar from his briefcase and placed it on my neck. Mistress removed her collar and applied the lock to Master Roberts collar. Mistress said you are the property of Master Robert. Now, go slave. Master Robert placed a leash on His collar and lead me out to His truck. Master Robert said since his slave was not wearing any clothing that he should be discrete until W/we arrived at His house. Master Robert told him that the best way to do this was to suck His cock while He drove home. he obeyed.

Weeks Thirteen – Fifteen

I am once again a free man. My slavery to Mistress Onny is over and I am no longer Master Roberts cumslut. To bring you up to speed on what transpired, I have attempted to remember as much as possible. During my three week enslavement by Master Robert, I was not allowed any journal entry time. In slave voice: When W/we arrived at Master Roberts home Master Robert told him to stop worshiping His cock. He obeyed. Master took me into His House and led me through the house to His basement. He led me down the stairs and I felt somewhat sick to my stomach. He is 24 years old and is once again a slave full time, but this time to a Master. At first glance, Master has a nice play area but no real dungeon equipment to speak of. However He does have an old wine cellar in His basement He had converted into a slave cell it was very clean and had a place that was for wine originally that had been converted into a cage within it... He put me in the cell but not the cage and removed the leash. Master said that he would be back to train me in a while. The door closed, the light was off and he was in the dark. It had been quite for a while so he tried to open the door. It was locked and there was no escape. he sat on the floor and waited for Master to need him. he had fallen asleep and then heard the lock turn and then the door opened and Master was standing at the door. Master said that he had never signed his new contract. Master pushed the papers in my face again. He said sign the contract slave and make it official. Make me your Master. he told Master that He was his Master. But Master Robert insisted. he obeyed. It was now official. he again was owned, this time not at all what he wanted. Many things went through my head. Was this consensual? Was he kidnapped and being held against his will? What did this Master intend on doing with him? he realized that he had been turned from being a Dom into a dick sucking slave who had no clothing, or possessions with him. Master ordered me to unfasten his belt. he obeyed; he knew what was going to happen again. Master then ordered me to unbutton his jeans and unzip them. he obeyed. Masters cock was kind of erect but not fully as he gazed upon it through his underwear. Master then said pull my jeans down bitch and my underwear too. Again, he obeyed. Master’s cock kept getting harder and more erect the closer his slave got to it. Master said to me, worship your Masters cock bitch, and show your Master your submission. I worshiped his cock. Giving himself completely over to his Master. his Master’s cock was great, it was big and it dominated his every fiber of being. This Master was Master of this slaves life. he could not help but succumb to this Master who has taken him by means of trickery or deceit, but it did not matter while he was worshiping His cock. Master’s orgasm pumped into his mouth and he swallowed it and massaged it all out licking the tip, licking Masters monstrous shaft until he said that was enough. he said, thank You Master, this slave is Your slave. Master then took me over to a tap in the basement and hosed me down with cold water, then place me back in the slave cell. But this time Master locked me in the slave cage, inside the slave cell. he believes that he was there until the next night, no food, no water and he desperately needed to go to the bathroom. Master opened the door of the cell and then unlocked the cage. He allowed him to go to the bathroom and then back to the slave cell He led me. he asked his Master what is going to happen to Your slave Master. Master said, that he was to be transformed into a cumslut. I am Your cumslut now Master what more is there? Master said for me to be silent and locked me in the slave cell again. A few moments later He opened the cell and put a bowl of rice and veggies in the cell on the floor and a bowl of water. Master said eat up bitch and locked me in again. Perhaps the next day Master opened the cell again this time there were the two Masters who raped me in Mistress Onny’s Dungeon, previously basement. Master told me to obey them. Both Masters grabbed and pushed him to his knees. They forced him to suck their cocks and slapped him around some too. This continued on and off for about 2 weeks, then Master told me that he wanted him to take a shower with Him. he obeyed. Maser instructed him to wash His body and shampoo his hair. he obeyed. Master said kneel bitch and worship my cock. His cock started soft and he licked it and sucked it to a fully erect state. Master held my hair and His cock over powered him and forced him into a state of ecstasy where this Master was his reason for existing. Master then told me to stand up turn around and bend over. he obeyed. Master turned off the water, squeezed some lube on my ready ass and overpowered me with His cock. Master then said to me that a slave is a slave no matter who owns them. to be owned is to be controlled; Master fucked me for a while and then pulled out to cum in my mouth. Kneeling and my mouth open Master came in my mouth again. It was an honor to be His and to be used by such a dominant Master and cock. Master mistreated me for three weeks; this slave sucked His cock, worshiped His cock and worshiped His body or the other two Masters every time the cell door opened. he had given up the idea of being free again. He did not give it a thought after the first week. he decided that he was a slave and would always be one. After all, he is kept locked up all the time and can not escape nor did he actually desire to. Then one day after about three or four days lock up, all three Masters appeared at the door. he immediately went to his knees but they said, come out slave. he wondered what was going on. Master said that he needed to shower. So Master took him to the bathroom to allow him to shower.

That shower felt like a million bucks it had been days since Master had hosed me down and this water was warm and he used soap. It was great. Master told him to follow Him. he obeyed. W/we went into His bedroom and the bed had a black girl, and two hot looking blonde girls already there naked and both Masters were there too. Master Robert said that it was time for an orgy and he was going to join in. he obeyed. For what was about an hour we fucked, sucked and got fucked he took the black chick first and fucked her mouth then cunt master fucked my mouth as he fucked the black girl. If he was to be a slave for Master Robert this fringe benefit would definitely make it all worth it. But when we were all finished Master told me to go back to the slave cell. he obeyed.

Master then gave him the clothing he had wore to Mistress Onny’s home before enslaved. He told him to kneel and that He was uncollaring me. Master unlocked His collar and said that he was free. For a moment, a brief moment, it crossed my mind to say that he did not want to be free. he wanted to be owned. But, he kept silent got dressed and was driven back to my friends home where he had been living prior to Mistress Onny’s enslavement. For days I didn’t feel free. I felt wrong, I felt as though I did not belong to the world anymore. Perhaps one day I will own another slave again... Perhaps this time I will have a different perspective. Due to this experience I felt it necessary to maintain a standing in the lifestyle. I am a Master now and have learned a lot about the slave mind. Master Robert told me that sometimes slaves are kept against their will but want it inside. So, they do not struggle. Master said that, as a Master it is sometimes hard to punish the ones we love. Therefore it may be better to keep them locked up to keep them out of trouble. When you release them they obey much better than a slave who runs free. Thanks Mistress Onny, for training me and selling me to Master Robert. I learned so much and have never been sorry that the experience came the way it did.

Obviously when this was written, it was done so as a slave journal and had to be typed at a later date. When I went back to type this, I was amazed at the length of time I had spent in slave-space and/or the zone. Like I said above, it was a long time before I felt like I was free and dominant again but as it slowly returned, my understanding had as well.

I appreciate everyones  understanding.

 

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Now there was a couple questions privately I will address.

#1 "How did you feel?>" - I was terribly humiliated, I was terrified that I would contract disease due to all of the unprotected sex and yes I still have thoughts of those days.

#2 Would I  be a slave again?>  I am actually more confortable being a Dominant.  I have roleplayed as a slave in the past after those days, and I feel a great deal of anxiety.  I also had flashbacks on a minor level that I could not get away. I wanted to get away.  So, I would say no, or at least not freely.

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Quite awesome. A Master who truly understands what it means to be mastered.

Well I was more than mastered at the time.

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Quite awesome. A Master who truly understands what it means to be mastered.

 

Thanks for your comments.

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"The less strength you display to your Owner, the stronger you are inside."

 

Well saidSmile

 

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A few questions if I may be permitted.

1. Do You regret at all the experience.

    I regret that it happened, but like most learning experiences, now I am greatful that I have the knowledge.

2. Did You feel betrayed that Your Mistress friend did something You weren't expecting, and do You expect Your slave to submit to anything You wish to subject it to, or do you have set perimeters.

Betrayed, yes.  Very much so.  The experience made me very heart broken.  Now though, I have a unique perspective.

Slave to submit, Well yes, but all details are usually outlined quite clearly.

3. Do You feel the experience made You a better Master? Please explain why or why not.

4. Do You consider yourself a switch?

Difficult to answer.  I would be fibbing if I said I never had those thoughts, but definitely prefer the Master/Dom role. Even today, I have a tradition.  During a D/s relationship, those who are living inside the household enjoy the position of Dominate on their birthday.  All others (for that day) submit. I have found that it is a good way to maintain civility in the relationship.

5. After Your experience, do You agree that it takes strength to be truly submissive.

Not only does it take strength physically, but it takes a considerable amount of mental and emotional stability.  Even though you may cry, break down and so forth, you always come back to your Owner and do as you are trained and expected.  The less strength you display to your Owner, the stronger you are inside.

 

If You find any of these questions disrespectful, offensive, or too personal to answer, please disregard them and accept my apology. I would never intentionally offend You.

No problems Kandace, I respect you a great deal too. 

 

Thank You for sharing such an intimate experience that you were reluctant to expose. It takes courage and a belief in oneself to be vulnerable. You have always shown those qualitys here.

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I have always had great Respect for You Sir.

That will never change.

It is somehow comforting to know that You know what it feels like to have a cock forced in Your ass whether You like it or not, or what it's like to be made to suck a cock for so long that you think your jaws are going to lock from being forced open in one position. You've been where I live, if only for a short time.

A few questions if I may be permitted.

1. Do You regret at all the experience.

2. Did You feel betrayed that Your Mistress friend did something You weren't expecting, and do You expect Your slave to submit to anything You wish to subject it to, or do you have set perimeters.

3. Do You feel the experience made You a better Master? Please explain why or why not.

4. Do You consider yourself a switch?

5. After Your experience, do You agree that it takes strength to be truly submissive.

If You find any of these questions disrespectful, offensive, or too personal to answer, please disregard them and accept my apology. I would never intentionally offend You.

Thank You for sharing such an intimate experience that you were reluctant to expose. It takes courage and a belief in oneself to be vulnerable. You have always shown those qualitys here.

~kandace~

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Quite awesome. A Master who truly understands what it means to be mastered.
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So if I may ask do you think that would be an ideal situation for everyone who is young, like myself, to do? To do a short slave session to learn or would it be better for someone to learn by watching?
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So if I may ask do you think that would be an ideal situation for everyone who is young, like myself, to do? To do a short slave session to learn or would it be better for someone to learn by watching?

 

At the time, I had just been fired (poor transportation) from a job and had all the time in the world.  So, having said that, I personally think this... Don't take this the wrong way 'cuz I mean absolutely no disrespect to anyone.

    If you are able to do it I recommend it.  The problem is, most Doms may not want to because it is not "them" or they are not "that way" and so on.  I can understand those feelings completely.  On the other hand, if you have the availability and the courage to do it, it will teach you A LOT. 

     Being a Dom, you must know that patience is very important.  You must also know that snap judgments are detrimental at times too.  At times as Dom's we may not have all the FACTS about a situation and our first inclination is to punish.  However, it is sometime more important to reteach and have patience rather than punish (the masochists may disagree Smile).  Reason being, as Dom's we can have unrealistic time goals (for example) for learning and accomplishing tasks.  As an Industrial Engineer, I have a good feel of "time management", but that is 'cuz I was taught and practiced it a lot.  It is not a natural thing for all though.  

So to sum up, if you can, if you have the courage and if you feel that you need the experience, I suggest, YES. Be sure you go into it knowing that as a submissive/slave/bottom whatever, you will have little to no say.

Hope this helps. 

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It does help a bit, and understand where you are coming from. When I first read your post I wasn't sure which way, my feelings where it would be an interesting study, for lack of a better term.

I'm also a visual type learner so I have to take that into my thoughts. No worries tho it has given more info to chew on and thanks.

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I'm also a visual type learner so I have to take that into my thoughts. No worries tho it has given more info to chew on and thanks.


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