Good evening everyone,

i am a single, 41 year old "naturally born" woman. i live in the United States and i am seeking an online trainer for cyber training for approximately a period of 3 to 6 months. i seek a person who is skilled in the art of humiliation, seeks perfection in a woman, and accepts nothing less than the best. i am using this site because i hope, and believe there must be one cruel, strict, Dominant here that can help me meet my goals. i have not served real time for about 1 year now. My father had/has lung & bladder cancer and being a good daughter i was there to help out and support him in his time of need; in between working a very high stress/high pressure job. The toll of these two factors, and not taking a real vacation in 10 years has done a number of my mind and body as of late. i seek to correct these two factors in order to make myself worthy to serve a Master full time again. i plan to start first with the body.

i am 5'4" and weighed 110-115 pounds last year. Mid year, i started to gain some weight and i presently weigh 137. Suffice to say, i feel i am far from worthy to serve any Master real time. ( i know there has been talk of a slaves beauty on this site as of late. i do not judge others; i have always accepted others as they are, but i have always judged myself and i cannot change that....not yet.)

i am seeking a very strict, cruel Dominant to help me get down to 95 pounds. i want someone who can pick apart my body, and voice to me in unwavering humiliation and truth what needs improving on. i want to serve someone who is not afraid to command me not to eat for a week at a time, or commands me work out 2-4 hours a day. i would love to serve someone who loves micro managing a slave's schedule and duties. i am very obedient when i commit to serving someone, and i am more than willing to post a private blog of my daily workout/ food intake regime. i am also more than willing to take naked photos of my body for you to critique weekly, along with measurements and weight. Please be aware, up till now, i rarely let anyone take a photo of me, being either in the vanilla or D/s realm. This has always been a challenge for me, but i am hoping by accomplishing this task i will become more humble and learn how to better serve for the future.

In addition, i have a gym membership and many varies types of workout video tapes to work out to, if you so command me. Lastly, if agreed upon, i can set up a Internet camera (with my face masked) so you can watch me work out; if you so desire that, and i just bought a Blackberry phone for this task so you can me contact by email, im, or text message and i can respond back to you within minutes or seconds.

Even though i do consider myself a slave, i do not consider myself one presently, again, because i do not feel worthy. i want to get back to my slave state of mind which is always "on", but my courage to seek real time service is in the closet now, and i need some assistance to bring me back to the horny, wet slut i really am. i do wish not to offend anyone by stating the following conditions on this agreement, but thought i should be up front on what i can and cannot do in this "arrangement." i know many will say, a slave never puts down the rules, but i am seeking training, not slavery. i hope everyone understands, and thank you.

1) i cannot/will not show photos of my face in any photos. (Professional reasons)

2) i will not perform any sexual commands while in my training period, because for the first time in my life, i do not feel sexual unless i feel comfortable back in "my body" again. Humbly speaking, please do not ask anything sexual of me because it will turn me off and i will cut off communication then.

3) When working out, i must wear a bra. i am "naturally" big busted and desire to lose weight, tone and firm up my body....not knock my eyes out from my breasts swinging in the wind when i am working out. lol

4) Punishments, if so deemed, must be discussed in advance. Again, i am seeking humiliation more than punishment.

5) Family issues will always take priority over serving and i am currently having construction done on my loft now in order to make it more appeasing to my future Master. Therefore, at times i might not be able to accomplish a task for the reason stated above.

Thank you for listening (sorry for the long note), and i humbly beg someone strong and commanding to train me,

justine