I must just add that these women were all old, like in their fifties and sixties. Not that I think women in their fifties cant be sexy, cos they certainly can..Kim Cattral for one is a fox...but these ones werent like sexy bitch Kim thats for sure...no way, full stop...they looked OLD and grannyish. No doubt thinking...'in my day that sort of attire would never be tolerated....what a jezebel'. LOL

Came back from seeing a Dom earlier who told me the experience was really special for him as I did some things I said I wouldnt. We mostly embarked on a hell of alot of fisting with one hand, two hands and up to the knuckles in my ass! I was gagged at one point with nipple clamps pinching my nipples and ordered to sit on his fist, which I did. He fisted me in so many positions, from behind, with me straddling his chest where I really tranced out completely and my head went all dizzy...ooh, it was great, me on my side, etc...and the first thing I had to do was display for him after I'd got all dressed up and hold my cunt lips wide open and turn around and spread my legs and bend over before having a beer bottle inserted into my cunt, wide ways in. I could of doubled up as a drinks dispenser had the bottle been full. I must try that, anyone want to use my cunt to serve drinks at a party sometime? Then I had to put said bottle into my gaping mouth, again base first in whilst another one was stuffing my cunt and I was told to spread my legs wide...I have some pics so I'll post them up in good time. I asked for a flogging but I could of done with a hell of alot more really, hopefully will get that next weekend if I see the other Dom.

I'm guessing I'll really feel it tomorrow and all week now, my cunt and possibly ass will be sore.

Well yesterday never happened, so disappointed..but then its become usual for things not to occur. The more one gets excited about something, the less likely it is to happen I find, even when firm plans are in place, nevermind.

I have just been contacted by someone else I know from ages ago and hopefully with a bit of luck next weekend I will have a full 24hrs use bound, collared, chained and gagged, being used under Sir's foot partly through degradation/humiliation and partly as his paintoy, as I know how much he likes to use me in that way and I especially enjoy being chained up and sensorily deprived not knowing whats coming next? Whether it be a knife to my throat, a plug in my ass, his cock in my mouth, breath restriction, the noose around my neck or my nipples being tortured before a sharp sting to my cheek or ass or some rough anal and possibly tears. I still remember all we did the last time and that was some time ago now. I know I'll be exhausted afterwards, marked and probably woken up, if indeed I'm allowed to sleep, with my breakfast being his hot cum down my throat! I'll know for sure if this session will happen by next week.

Anyway, I've decided to put some more pics on this site. I'll have a look and see which ones and will add them.

So, I have more time to write now...on the subject of being a fat fuck pig, people have said, hey, youre not that big...but...I am actually, I look slimmer in some of my pics and in some of them I actually was a size 16...I am now a size 18/20. My profile pic is how I look currently, corsetted up, but naked I am fat and I admit I dont like being naked at all. But if you like large girls then thats me! I've never been thin, skinny, slim or anything like that, ever. On the subject of dressing up as a piggy with a snout, not for me, I would like to be a doggy or a cat or even try the pony stuff (back permitting). I like all the headgear and the bit gags and all that. For puppy play I have a k9 fetish anyway, so with that the whole dressing as a bitch appeals. I've seen some great dog masks but very expensive. I once was gonna bid for one on ebay but even that was too much for me to pay.

Fuckdoll, or 'cuntslut' is more me, but I guess anyone can call me a fuckpig. I like degradation and humiliation and it would certainly humiliate me, maybe even make me cry as it has psychological meaning for me. But I wouldnt like to think it would mentally damage me and when I was feeling especially vulnerable this may be the case. I can be quite sensitive about my weight sometimes, whilst other times I really dont care and have accepted I will never be small and whilst this is desirable I am sexy enough to get my fair share of fun, be lusted after and sought after and am a damn good fuck if I do say so myself, lol. And a pretty depraved, perverted sub whore too. My mind knows no bounds at times. I like it that way, just need to find a partner to take me places and set up situations to test me.

Just a quick one as on way out. I am hoping to have an interesting encounter with someone on this site this Friday, and his slut. I am really excited but just hope it goes ahead. Sunday I am seeing another Dom for a short session and of course the army officer Dom wants to see me also, but I'm not sure what condition I'll be in after those two as I expect I'll be extremely sore after relentless fisting and slapping, etc.

The other night I got up to some mischief with a vanilla guy who pulled me last minute down the pub. I told him exactly what I was into...I never beat around the bush with anyone and need to know straight away what they make of it. He wasnt into it but still was keen on me. His friend wanted a 3sum with me but the one who liked me wasnt having any of it. I would of done it though as being rather drunk and extremely horny I was game. He spoke to me in private and said 'look, I can see youre a girl with an extremely high sex drive and you said youre open minded, so how about it? or how about I give you my number so you can call me later?' I laughed and said no. I couldnt very well do that with his friend not being up for it, that wouldnt be right despite what I might have wanted. There is such a thing a respect. So we went to check into a hotel but it was fully booked so his mate kindly lend us his car to play. He had my breasts out straight away and tights and knickers down and soon I was sucking him off and getting fucked in the ass. I suggested that as I was on my period, besides which, I happen to like anal alot. It was horny being fucked in the car not knowing if his mate was secretly watching. Afterwards he came along and caught me half naked and asked his mate for a condom so he could have a go with me. He asked me, but I said no. Again, I was mindful that he didnt want that. So his friend drove us to a cab office and I was sposed to go home alone, but instead of carrying onto his place and dropping me off first he'd been fingering me all the way back in the back of the cab and I was stiffling groans, quite badly I must say. That cabbie must of known only too well what was going on. And the guy asked if he could come in and so he did and we had another fuck, in ass and cunt this time. It was okay, but not as good as in the car, that felt naughty and I liked it. Back at mine it just wasnt great, I have family to worry about and am rather noisy in the sack. I felt bored really being so vanilla, I do like my kink, without it my mind tends to wander. Anyway, afterwards he went home and I have no intention of seeing him again, it was just drunken fun afterall. No harm in it. But now for some real hardcore bdsm fun, which is my fave. And I'll write that account of my hard session with my fuck buddy where we did lots....piss play, deepthroat, needles, flogging, bruising my tits, slapping, speculums, anal, lots of pain, pegs, large toys, etc, etc.

Last night I went out and had a few drinks and really had a strong urge for some rape play. I didnt get it but I got in and just had all these images in my head of being roughly forced and fucked in each hole.

I now have another month before my operation and I would love to meet a Dom I really feel attracted to for a few sessions before I go in. If theres anyone on here who's based in London, is single and under 45... AND can accommodate please get in touch with a pic, and if I like you maybe we can meet very soon.

Someone on another site just sent me a rape story...fuck, I'm so horny now! Waiting for the next parts. Shame I dont find the writer remotely attractive! LOL

I'd like to point out to anyone interested in me that I'm NOT looking for anyone over the age of 45....my ideal age is early to mid thirties, so 50 is just too much of a stretch for me. I wish people would just understand that and stop trying to push it, it wont change. There are many reasons I want a man near my own age, its not just about sex and bsdm, its about compatibility and sharing the same things we both grew up with. I find it much more fun to be able to talk about that rather than having a generation gap which isnt much fun at all. And for a long term partner I just want someone near my age and thats the way the cookie crumbles, end of.