Just a sort of goodbye post really. If I could delete my profile and pics on here I would do and find it annoying that its not a basic function, especially when the pics could do me some future damage.

It seems timely that the week I decide to leave the site (at least for a while anyway), that my membership runs out and I find comments that arent needed on a thread just cos I make a comment about feeling offended about something, which is my right, or must no one have feelings anymore? Please! If a thread is so obviously about me and you dont like me then why read it? it would seem just to say something nasty! Pathetic as ever!!! This site is amazing for people to dis each other and be unnecessary I find and as I'm sure I've mentioned in the past, perfect for those who have no real identity online in pic form so are shielded by anonymity and can feel free to say any old tat to anyone. So in that respect its healthier to be rid and to also be rid of negative people who are repeat offenders and not be part of it anymore as its just childish and petty.

I'm pleased that I have finally decided against a Master or Dom in my life as nothing good ever came from it in at least 4yrs which is ALOT...and it now rules out so much pomp and rubbish and silly comments that people choose to take it upon themselves to leave. Its a relief. I just dont believe in the unreality of some things and the huge amount of play acting that some people may get into and the false respect that is ordered when some people dont deserve even an ounze and call give themselves a title which isnt deserving of it. The whole matter of this winds me up no end and is nice to now leave behind.

Anyway, to my friends on here, take care, and maybe see you around at some point. To everyone else...well....I dont think I need to leave a parting gesture, its pretty obvious what it would be!

You may of realised by now I'm taking an extensive break from here and persuing other vanilla interests. I'm enjoying them alot, have lost 10lbs in the last 5wks and am also being very good lately in regards to quitting alcohol and men and out of control behaviour as things needed to change, I needed to change in order to get the things I really wanted in my life and feel mentally healthy as well as much healthier physically which is an ongoing crusade. I am not looking for a man in my life at present and I am happy with this and find once again I am stronger without. I will know when someone suitable comes along though, if he does at all, until then I wont be meeting anyone for fun or anything else. I am undertaking a new course also and this means I have to change my lifestyle and so need to be somewhat distant from this scene if I am to succeed. But to be honest, I feel quite bored with it anyway and its not as important as it used to be to me in the past. Recent bad experiences have actually done me a favour and caused me to look at myself and I have made healthy changes to my life and feel ten million times better. What with this in mind it only makes me even more resolved to only enact my slutty side with someone I'm in a long term relationship with and not before. But as I say, I am not actively looking right now as I have more important matters to get on with and more enjoyable pursuits to persue.

I do check in every now and again to check for messages though or comment on something that may catch my eye but I wont be posting blogs every other day as I used to anymore. I find to get too involved on here and in the scene only helps to cause me problems in one way or another and as everyone knows, I just kept meeting the wrong men constantly, not getting anywhere, feeling so wretched about it all and putting myself in the most stupid risky situations which I will never again do, so the less of that occuring, the better. Now at least I know it wont be happening anytime soon, hooray!

I have really learnt alot in the last couple of months, and I think, grown up tons, so I am actually thankful that what happened did as its changed me for the better! What a relief that something positive came out of all the bullshit!!!