I am going to see this new guy tonight that I met at the pub last week, but I dont really know what I've let myself in for. He told me he's been showing his mates my messages and I sent him a scenario a Dom had sent me as I found it really hot. It was a gang rape. He's jokingly said that his mates would be over tonight and if I liked maybe we could reinact that scene. I laughed, this isnt the normal Dom/sub meet and I've been restrained so far afraid to reveal how I really am. I think he has something of an idea but really, really doesnt know the extent of it and this time I've kept things a bit mysterious with little hints of things but no real hard facts or detail. I told him I thought he was a closet Dom but didnt really know it yet. I mean, he remarked he had Tequila if I wanted some, and I said, are you trying to get me drunk? and he said to me, when you come over youre going to do what I tell you one way or the other, I dont need to get you drunk, now if thats not Dom then I dont know what is really, paired with his insistence that I come and service him at any time of the day or night (although so far I havent done) and his liking for being served by females as he relaxes, and obviously liking forcing me down on his cock to take him down my throat and slapping me, well, need I say more? He has potential, even if he's not really aware of it yet. I think he gets his own way with women alot, I can tell and looking the way he does its no wonder. But I dont expect anything more than tonight or just being used as and when really. Best not to have any expectations.

So I'm to be there tonight at 11pm and bring some toys with me, make myself pretty he said. His friends will be there, its up to me whether I decide to take it further with them or just be with him. He wont push me into anything, he said its my choice. But this is pretty close to home for me and I am somewhat concerned about playing the whore tonight and making things sooo easy for him in the process. If it was a proper Dom/sub meeting then I would feel differently, I would probably allow myself to be gang raped and used, but this isnt like that and I will bump into these guys down at a local bar, with my rather conservative friends who just wouldnt understand. So I do have to think beyond pleasure for a change. Tonight will be undecided until I am actually there, but I think I'll settle for just him, at least until I get to know him anyway, if it goes anywhere and I feel more comfortable telling him more about the real me. But....this time I may not reveal anything at all, see how that works out for me.